Lucid Dream 04/29/2019
I'm really beginning to hate sleeping alone. I place the protections but the attacks still come. In fact, they are becoming a consistent thing when my husband is next to my side. I used to call them spirit dreams, but their becoming less about spirits and more about demonic attacks. This morning was no acception.
My husband and I got up at 4 this morning since his job called him this weekend to come in early today. Early work means early morning. So I did my normal routine and got him off to work. I stayed up for a couple of hours but then got really tired so I decided to lay back down for awhile. After placing a protection around me, I fell asleep. I don't really remember my dreams but have created an internal security system to remember and go lucid if invader's jump my dreams. So the part I started remembering at was finding my husband. He was walking really far ahead and I couldn't keep up. I saw his head once so I knew I was going in the right direction. The street was really crowded and it was easy to lose him. Suddenly I started walking into a covered area and the people disappeared. I hot a dead end and almost fell off the ledge. Apparently I wasn't the only one because when I looked down, I saw blood and a bunch of people, like health care worker's running around. I tried looking to see if it was my husband. I knew I had to get down to the bottom. I was about a story up.
The nice thing about lucid dreaming as many times I can think of something and it will happen. Next thing I knew I was on the ground. I saw some nurses holding bandages on a couple of girls heads that were bleeding and realized it was them. I was really happy nobody died. I started walking into the hospital doors when a male came up behind me and started hitting on me. He was solid. This is my clue this is an entity. I told him No, I was looking for my husband. He put his hand on my back and started pushing me through the doors when my husband came walking out of the automatic doors. I ran to him and the other man disappeared. We walked through the hospital and again my husband disappeared. I noticed that I had a difficult time keeping my eyes open because it was so bright. It was very difficult for me to see.
I kept walking down the hallways when I opened some double doors. As soon as the doors opened, this crazy girl pounced on me and started attacking me. Again, she was solid. I tried fighting her off of me but she was strong and completely insane. So I started calling out my husband's name. He came and she stop attacking me and started crawling on the floor away from us. We walked a little further and he left again to the restroom.
I woke up and realized that I woke up from one dream but still alseep. When I woke up from the first dream, I woke up in a different room and saw my middle daughter sitting in a chair waiting for me. Again, solid. But she looked a little different. She had cut her hair to a bob cut and her face didn't look like her's. Their was so much anger in her. She started yelling and her words came out really fast. I told her that I couldn't understand a word she said. I started getting nervous as she started getting closer.
I looked around for my husband and realized that he wouldn't be able to make it into the room and that we were in a different location. It was magickally impossible for him to come through the door. This is what I call plain jumping. Where they guide me out of my own dream state where I have control into a different plane where I do not. She started advancing towards me when I started to push her away. She screamed that I punched her and I yelled, No I didn't!" She didn't like me calling her out and then jumped on me and started beating on me.
Then some unseen force yanked out of the dream and I woke up. I layed there in shock for a few minutes. I was still really tired and so I placed another protection around me and the third eye (which cover's dreams) and closed my eyes. As soon as I closed my eyes, I heard a "whoosh" and felt a strong wind move across my head. It startled me a little bit but then dismiised it and closed my eyes again. As soon as I closed my eyes, I felt a gentle movement on the same part of my head. It felt like someone was gently touching my head to make me stay awake. Obviously, whoever was watching over me wanted me to stay awake. I layed there for several more minutes not wanting to get up partly because I was cold and wanted to stay warm under the cover's and partly afraid it was another trap. Suddenly, the heater kicked on and knew that was my sign to get up. After I settled onto the couch, the heater turned off.
Though the attacks still rattle me,it doesn't scare the hell out of me like they used to because it happens so often. But it's at the point where it never fails, if he is not near me, proximity wise, I get attacked. And I don't know why. I think it's because I have come to depend upon him to much. I got the point where I was able to cast spells and cross spirits over in my dream state but after an attack with an incubus about a year and a half ago, I noticed that when I protected my husband and I together, I would pull him into my dreams and they would stand back and couldn't get to me unless we were separated. So he told me to just protect us together instead of separate shields. So I have been and yes, one hand works like a charm. However, though, if he get's up before I do or is not here, I have to keep trying to pull him in my dreams and he comes and goes. Obviously because he is in his waking state and his conscious mind is focused on other things. So it doesn't work well unless we are both asleep and side by side.
I also don't understand the increase of attacks. I think they feel if he is not around, I'm an easy target. I think this is my cue to dive back into my old spiritual ways. I had power back then. Though he is a wonderful source of protective power, I also have to go back to protecting myself.
My husband and I got up at 4 this morning since his job called him this weekend to come in early today. Early work means early morning. So I did my normal routine and got him off to work. I stayed up for a couple of hours but then got really tired so I decided to lay back down for awhile. After placing a protection around me, I fell asleep. I don't really remember my dreams but have created an internal security system to remember and go lucid if invader's jump my dreams. So the part I started remembering at was finding my husband. He was walking really far ahead and I couldn't keep up. I saw his head once so I knew I was going in the right direction. The street was really crowded and it was easy to lose him. Suddenly I started walking into a covered area and the people disappeared. I hot a dead end and almost fell off the ledge. Apparently I wasn't the only one because when I looked down, I saw blood and a bunch of people, like health care worker's running around. I tried looking to see if it was my husband. I knew I had to get down to the bottom. I was about a story up.
The nice thing about lucid dreaming as many times I can think of something and it will happen. Next thing I knew I was on the ground. I saw some nurses holding bandages on a couple of girls heads that were bleeding and realized it was them. I was really happy nobody died. I started walking into the hospital doors when a male came up behind me and started hitting on me. He was solid. This is my clue this is an entity. I told him No, I was looking for my husband. He put his hand on my back and started pushing me through the doors when my husband came walking out of the automatic doors. I ran to him and the other man disappeared. We walked through the hospital and again my husband disappeared. I noticed that I had a difficult time keeping my eyes open because it was so bright. It was very difficult for me to see.
I kept walking down the hallways when I opened some double doors. As soon as the doors opened, this crazy girl pounced on me and started attacking me. Again, she was solid. I tried fighting her off of me but she was strong and completely insane. So I started calling out my husband's name. He came and she stop attacking me and started crawling on the floor away from us. We walked a little further and he left again to the restroom.
I woke up and realized that I woke up from one dream but still alseep. When I woke up from the first dream, I woke up in a different room and saw my middle daughter sitting in a chair waiting for me. Again, solid. But she looked a little different. She had cut her hair to a bob cut and her face didn't look like her's. Their was so much anger in her. She started yelling and her words came out really fast. I told her that I couldn't understand a word she said. I started getting nervous as she started getting closer.
I looked around for my husband and realized that he wouldn't be able to make it into the room and that we were in a different location. It was magickally impossible for him to come through the door. This is what I call plain jumping. Where they guide me out of my own dream state where I have control into a different plane where I do not. She started advancing towards me when I started to push her away. She screamed that I punched her and I yelled, No I didn't!" She didn't like me calling her out and then jumped on me and started beating on me.
Then some unseen force yanked out of the dream and I woke up. I layed there in shock for a few minutes. I was still really tired and so I placed another protection around me and the third eye (which cover's dreams) and closed my eyes. As soon as I closed my eyes, I heard a "whoosh" and felt a strong wind move across my head. It startled me a little bit but then dismiised it and closed my eyes again. As soon as I closed my eyes, I felt a gentle movement on the same part of my head. It felt like someone was gently touching my head to make me stay awake. Obviously, whoever was watching over me wanted me to stay awake. I layed there for several more minutes not wanting to get up partly because I was cold and wanted to stay warm under the cover's and partly afraid it was another trap. Suddenly, the heater kicked on and knew that was my sign to get up. After I settled onto the couch, the heater turned off.
Though the attacks still rattle me,it doesn't scare the hell out of me like they used to because it happens so often. But it's at the point where it never fails, if he is not near me, proximity wise, I get attacked. And I don't know why. I think it's because I have come to depend upon him to much. I got the point where I was able to cast spells and cross spirits over in my dream state but after an attack with an incubus about a year and a half ago, I noticed that when I protected my husband and I together, I would pull him into my dreams and they would stand back and couldn't get to me unless we were separated. So he told me to just protect us together instead of separate shields. So I have been and yes, one hand works like a charm. However, though, if he get's up before I do or is not here, I have to keep trying to pull him in my dreams and he comes and goes. Obviously because he is in his waking state and his conscious mind is focused on other things. So it doesn't work well unless we are both asleep and side by side.
I also don't understand the increase of attacks. I think they feel if he is not around, I'm an easy target. I think this is my cue to dive back into my old spiritual ways. I had power back then. Though he is a wonderful source of protective power, I also have to go back to protecting myself.
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